21st March 2015 – one year on ……..
It’s been a long hard year without you. There has been so many times I’ve heard or seen something and thought “Oh I must tell Mom about that” and then it hits me that I will never be able to do that again.
I still have your name on my phone, so everytime Paul rings me, it comes up “Mom” calling – and for that split second – I forget.
I had a dream whilst sleeping during the day, after a nightshift. There was no one in the house, but I heard a noise downstairs. In my sleepy state I remember thinking “It’s alright, it’s only Mom” I then laid there and thought I better go downstairs and put the tv on for you – you would be bored sat down there on your own whilst I slept. I then thought I should get up, maybe take you into town to look round the shops but I was so tired and fell back to sleep. When I finally did wake up – and remembered – it made me so sad – so sad for every missed opportunity I had to spend time with you – I knew it was a dream – but I wished I had gone downstairs anyway – just in case.
On the brighter side, I don’t cry so much anymore – I know you would want us all to remember you with a smile on our face and laughter bubbling away inside. But every now and again, when I’m walking Peppa I look up to the sky and wonder where you’ve gone.
I can still hear your voice and your laughter. I can still feel your poor little hands in mine and how I was the only one you let cut your finger nails. Your hands were so twisted I would be laid on the floor nearly upside down to try and cut them – without cutting you.
I still haven’t been able to listen to our beloved Riverdance, but I think I will soon. That music was ours, our shared love – and I know you will be kicking your legs alongside me when I finally play it again x
I hope you can see us all and share with all our happy moments and support us through the tough times we’ve had. We’re all doing ok 😊
I love and miss you everyday – until I see you again – rest peacefully up your beautiful hills ❤️
i’m so sorry – what a nice tribute to her
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She was bloody wonderful 😊
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That was beautiful, Lisa ❤
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Thank you xx
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Wonderful words to someone dear to your heart. I’m sure she is looking down on you with pride and love. xoxo
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Thank you x I’m sure she is too – she never missed a thing 😊
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A very touching post that can’t help but make me appreciate still having my mom around, even though she is across an ocean. It’s good that we talk all the time. Thank you for this post.
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Thank you for reading and taking the time to comment. How lovely you can still chatter across the waters 😊 Jeff’s parents live in South Africa, we’re in UK – Skype is wonderful 😊 have a good day x
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Tears in my eyes… this is lovely.
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Aw no tears darling – just happy memories xx
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From the male perspective I believe there is something sacred about mother– daughter love that truly makes the world a better place. Thank you sharing this post, Lisa.
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What a lovely thought and so very true! Thank you for taking the time to read x
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Your very welcome, Lisa. Have a good evening, or shift if you’re working.
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Thanks yes working night shift – 5.00am here so just another 2 hours to go 😊 you also have a good day x
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This was so sweet, she sounds so lovely and I am sure you made her proud 🙂
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She was wonderful 😊 thank you for your kind words xx
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oh lisa – big hugs. Our mothers are so precious. xxxx
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They certainly are x thank you Daisy xx 😘
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A beautiful memory and tribute to your Mum. Big hugs!
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Thank you xx 😘
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Beautiful. It does get easier, not so much when you get them moments when you just need them, but then again it’s been 2 years next month that I lost my dad x
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Xxxx
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Such a lovely tribute. You’re so right, the tears are replaced by joyful memories. I lost my mother to cancer in 1980, and I still think of her all the time. She didn’t live long enough to be a grandparent, to get a wrinkle or a gray hair. Be grateful for every memory you made together. Hugs. 💖
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I’m sorry xx no tears, just those happy memories x those hugs coming right back at you xx 😘
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Anniversaries and birthdays can be hard, but also give us a reason to take the time to focus and reflect, to spend time with precious memories and honour them. ((Hugs))
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That’s lovely kiri and that’s what I’ve done – spent time with my lovely memories 😘😘 xx
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My mom has been gone for twelve years, my dad eleven. It does get better with time, but missing them never stops. Sometimes, I dream about them, and it’s like I got to visit. I hope you get your “visits” too.
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Thank you for reading Mary – and yes that was exactly how I felt with that dream – that she came to “visit” me 😊 xx
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Good. 😊
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❤ What a wonderful post.
I still want to tell my dad things and he's been gone 11 years. Mostly I want to give him hell because his grandson is so much like him! 🙂
Hugs and love to you.
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LOVE THIS! What a lovely tribute to your mom! Made me cry to hear about your loss. Thinking of you!
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Thank you xx 😘😘
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Swallowed down my tears while I was reading 🙂 I too lost my mum (5 years ago) and I feel for you! Hugs and love to you, x
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I’m so sorry for your loss Vilina – may both our mom’s smile down on us ❤ thanks for reading and much love xxx
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Sorry for your loss, but what a beautiful tribute.
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Thank you xx
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So lovely.
A wonderful post for your mum.
Thinking of you.
x
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Thank you xx
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This is so beautiful Lisa! Such a wonderful tribute, and also a reminder to truly enjoy the time we have with our moms. I’m very close to mine, and am having a big party for her this weekend, as she turns 80. Sounds like you had a very special and dear relationship with your mom. Take care, Jenny
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Aw thank you for reading and taking the time to comment x I hope you have a fantastic party for your Mom and I wish you many more happy occasions xx
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Thank you so much Lisa, I really appreciate that!
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Ditto xxx
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What a wonderful tribute to her. She truly was a part of your everyday lives.
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She certainly was 😊 thank you xx
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so very beautiful, I bet my bottom pound she was proud of you
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Thank you – I truly hope so 😊 xx
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I lost my mom over 20 years ago, but still feel the pain. I think of her and feel her presence often.
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A bond that can never be severed x much love xxx
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tears
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No tears now, just happy memories xxx
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This made me cry and I don’t even know you or your mum. Perhaps because it makes me think of my mum. A lovely tribute.
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Thank you, it still hurts – but – No tears now, just happy memories x thank you for reading xx
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Cherish those memories.
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I will 😊 thanks x
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Thank you for reading xxx
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